As I sit down at my computer on New Years eve I feel nothing but excitement.
Penning the second series to the Eden, Spencer and Jude saga from Complicated Love has nothing but surprises The characters have taken me to places I hadn't dreamed about when I started the first series.
Jude has a secret of his own that will come out and Spencer, is he really as nice as he makes out to be? Eden has sorted through her confusion and is moving forward positively but with all the challenges thrown her way, one has to wonder if she'll managed to continue the positive outlook.
Anyway back to my three favourite characters! I swear it's like have three people live in my head day and night. Like have a split personality. But I must admit I'm enjoying every moment of them and of the story. Please check back for more and I promise you won't be disappointed.
Wishing you a happy and successful 2013!
Sunday, 23 December 2012
Jude fights his hardest for her but as time passes he gets the feeling that she doesn’t love him back as much as he loves her and wonders if it is worth the effort .
has to make a decision that will change
the rest of her life and she wonders in the end if she’s made the right
This is the first in the series please look out for the second series ‘So this is love.’ Coming in early 2013.
back on the bed and thought about tomorrow. She was actually looking forward to
it. It would be nice to go away for the weekend and do other things besides
work. Sort of a refresher, the body’s way of rejuvenating but then again it
wasn’t that simple, Eden
was still torn. Eden
Just then she heard the door bell ring.
‘Shit!’ It had slipped her mind. ‘Jude! Shit!’ She was supposed to answer the text to let him know she wouldn’t be available but it was too late now.
Quickly she took a glance at herself in the mirror. She still looked great in her grey tweed dress that was just above the knees, the black woolly tights and the black ankle boots really put the outfit together. Her hair was still in its place with a woollen flower headband around it. She rubbed her lips together as if distributing lip-gloss and then hurried downstairs.
‘God I’ve missed you.’ He flung his arms around her before she had the chance to say or do anything.
He squeezed her tight into him and for a moment
took in the embrace, enjoying the
‘Jude.’ She pulled away quickly and then closed the door. ‘We need to talk.’
‘About what?’ He smiled down at her, he was lovely, there was no denying that but was that enough. He leaned forward and captured her face into his hands and brought her face forward so that their lips met.
‘Jude.’ She mumbled weakly into him. ‘Jude please.’ She withdrew again weakly. It was so hard trying to resist him.
‘What’s wrong? Have I done something wrong?’
‘Why don’t you come and sit down in the living room.’ She led the way and he followed. She sat down and he took off his coat before doing the same.
‘You’re worrying me. What’s wrong?’ The worry was evident in his eyes.
‘It’s us, this, we have to talk.’ She had to tell him, she’d decided what she wanted and she had to live with the consequences of it. She’d replayed a lot of what Olivia had said and although she was right on many levels,
had to do what was best for her. Eden
‘We can’t do this.’ She took his hand in hers.
‘This, whatever it is you call this. You can’t keep showing up here. I can’t do this with you.’
‘Is it that man?’
‘The one who came here the other day?’
‘Spencer, his name is Spencer, and no it isn’t Spencer. This is about us.’
‘I don’t understand. I thought you understood that I love you, that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I thought you felt the same way too.’
‘I can’t. I can’t do this. This isn’t what I want.’
His eyes glazed over but he blinked back the threat of tears. ‘Why. What could honestly make you say this? You have to help me understand.’
‘It’s a lot of things.’
‘Tell me. I have time.’ He wasn’t letting this go.
‘For starters, the age thing. It’s just not right.’
‘Say’s who. No one questions a fifty year old man marrying a twenty five year old.’
‘It’s different.’ She huffed.
‘This is a mans world!’ she sang trying to joke about it. ‘This is a mans world.’
But Jude didn’t share in the joke; he turned to look at her seriously. This wasn’t a joke to him, neither was it to her but she just didn’t see the possibility of a relationship.
‘It’s strange on so many levels.’ She continued.
‘How exactly? I’m not buying that!’
‘First of all we just met. It’s hardly appropriate declaring love for one another so early.’ Although she had to admit the powerful feeling within her must be what love felt like. ‘Secondly, I hardly know you. I know you’re a doctor but I don’t really know you.’
‘Anything else?’ He raised his eyebrows.
shrugged; there were many things she quite couldn’t think up just then. Eden
‘About me telling you I love you. You may think I’m naïve but I’m studying for a medical degree. I know what I’m saying and even though it may be impossible to you, it’s possible for me. It’s so real. I just know that this is it, deny if you might, but I know that you feel it too. It’s not something that can be explained it can only be felt. I may be young but I’m so sure of this feeling, I know it deep down in me that I love you.’
Maturity had taught her otherwise. At sixteen that may’ve been true but life experience had taught her otherwise. There was something wonderful about being young and naïve though. You took more chances at life and maybe that was how life was supposed to be; about taking chances, about taking a step of faith and living in the now.
‘What will it take for you to believe a little? To stop being so afraid and to step out and love? You want to know about me, ask. We have years ahead of us.’ His face lit up somewhat. For someone that young he sure was wise. If she believed in reincarnation he would’ve been an old soul.
‘I am. I’m doing that.’
He took in a deep breath, ‘Really, with that guy – ‘
‘Spencer, his name is Spencer and well…’
‘Are you seriously going to be with that guy?’
‘Jude, I’m…I’m trying to understand what I want. It’s been a long while and I’m trying to figure it all out.’
‘And how do you propose to do that?’
‘I’m going away with him.’
Jude’s face dropped,
watched as his face turned red and his eyes widened. Eden
‘He’s booked us a weekend away. I know this might be a shock to you but I really need to do this. Jude, I don’t want you waiting for me. I want you to move on with your life. I want you to be with someone right for you.’
He remained silent and looked into space,
had no idea what to expect. A part of her was afraid he would walk out of the
door and never come back. Was that what she wanted? Eden
‘Aren’t you going to say something?’ she asked finally.
‘There…there is nothing to say. It is clear that you’ve made your choice.’
‘I haven’t made a choice; I’m only trying to find out what I want.’
‘By going away with Spencer?’ He finally said his name as if he had accepted defeat. ‘I want you to know that I love you.’ He looked into her eyes. ‘I’m not just saying it, I mean it but it’s clear you don’t love me back and – ‘
‘It’s complicated Jude, please – ‘
‘This is why I’m leaving now.’ He got up to go, the pain was like a dagger through his heart. He was about to let the love of his life leave his life for good. There was no other way to convince her that he loved her and that he wanted to be with her. He’d never been so sure of anything in his life but he couldn’t force love.
‘Jude.’ She reached out and grasped his arm. ‘Give me time.’
‘To do what?’
‘To choose, to find out what I want.’
‘What about me? What about what I want.’
‘I don’t know
this isn’t what I anticipated. You don’t get to choose, to play with my
‘But I’m not…I’m just so confused right now.’ She felt like a tided up knot.
‘I’m not.’ He turned the door handle and walked out the without turning back.
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Wednesday, 19 December 2012
It’s been a year and some months since I published my first novella. It has been an interesting journey and I’m looking forward to 2013.
If there is one thing I’ve learnt is that you can’t please everyone. I once heard a saying that opinions are like butts, everyone has one. So there will be people who like what you write and there will be people who don’t and that’s okay.
When you do what you love you stay true to yourself and even though some people may not like what you do, you do and that’s what counts. When someone doesn’t like what I write then it is clear that that person should not be reading my work and will probably never will again. The people who do like what I write will, I hope will read more of my work. I’m grateful to all my readers, those who like my work and those who didn’t. They have all taught me something valuable about myself, like never give up and keep writing and improving my craft. Our world would be a boring place if we were all the same. It’s good to have difference of opinion.
On a different note I’m happy to announce that I do have a new story coming out in the New Year. A love story that I’m so excited to tell. It started as an idea and I wanted to play with the characters a little and it turned out different to what I’d set out for it to be. It will be part of a series. Not sure how long the series will be but I will keep writing it until there is nothing left to write. I guess we all fantasise about the love we desire and even though sometimes in reality it may not be so, at least in our imagination we can make that dream come true.
Finally I just want to say thank you to all my readers and all my followers for an inspiring 2012. I've learnt so much and I’m continuing to learn. May you all have a blessed Christmas and an amazing 2013!